What I like about me…

{Me on the set of McFwap!}

So. I’ve reached that postpartum stage where I’m feeling a bit blah. You know the stage. I’m still thrilled to be a mom and I’m thinking that I am A-okay weight loss wise, but I’ve just got a case of the blahs. I never quite got my mojo back after The Boss made his entrance I am determined now that Huck is here to sort of piece myself back together. One simply cannot live in yoga pants and hoodies for ever, know what I mean? Surely there must be a middle ground between day time pj’s and platform wedges right? Wait. I love platform wedges. No middle ground there, but the point is this: I need to get back on the Stephanie bandwagon and figure out who I am in addition to being mommy/roadie/milk bar/walking napkin.

I know, it’s a tale often told. I’m not alone in this. But I must admit that I am still sort of  caddywhompas from the 1-2-3 punch of having a baby, moving, and then moving again. I miss my friends still. I am so isolated now and it’s hard to make new friends as an adult. Especially when you have tiny little ones. I find myself talking far too much when I am unleashed upon the adult population at large. Simply too excited to talk to someone who has knowledge of a world beyond Yo Gabba Gabba. I’m a big personality, to be sure. To be an actor and commedian in LA you sort of have to be, I fit in there, I made friends easily. Here? I’ve been so very, very, blessed to meet my blogging friends. My DCmoms (website soon to launch!) but even then, when we meet I am wracked with second thoughts. I talk too much, I interrupt too much. And also? They are all so accomplished it’s a mite bit intimidating! Everyone is so busy, of course, with life and kids and y’know 8 million blogging conferences that we rarely see one another. But I am lucky to have met them. But I digress…again.

One of these lovely DCMoms is CiaoMom. I adore her! She along with The Empress devised a dastardly plan. What if instead of the twenty million negative things we list about ourselves every day was replaced with just ten things we like? Maybe you don’t have the same inner monologue I do. In which case you’re one lucky duck cause my brain works like this:

{Wake up}Wow, I look tired. And old. When did I get so old? Is my neck sagging? Good Lord, it is. Ugh. I’m fat. This belly is so wobbly! holy crap! Is that my belly button? Whoa. I’m practically a hunchback. I hate my hair. Why can’t I figure out what to do with my damn hair. Ugh. I hate my clothes!{continue with slight variations until sleep}

 

You get the point.

So, the challenge. List a buncha things that you like about you. Errr. That I like about me. It has proven to be, well, troublesome. Is it because we as women are taught to downplay our accomplishments for fear of being labeled a braggart? I don’t know, but I do know this; it’s an uncomfortable thing for me to do. I’ve been sitting here for ages trying to come up with say, ten. And so far I’ve got:

1. I make really cute babies.

Yeah. Surely there is more to me that I like than just that??? Ugh. I keep thinking about this one picture of me, it’s my favorite picture of me ever! I’m laughing and the wind is blowing my hair back from my face. I’m wearing a vintage slip as a dress and some horrible frankenstein’s monster shoes. Despite the shoes, it’s a great picture I look happy and thin and it’s just perfect. It’s a perfect moment captured on film. I wish I could find it…so now we have

1. I make really cute babies

2. Once I took a really great picture that captured how happy and carefree I was.

 

oh yeah I am just BURNING up this list, riiiiiight??

So here we go, no heavy thinking just brainstorming. Don’t laugh, K?

  1. I make really cute kids (and I love them with all that I am)
  2. once I took a great picture that captured how happy and carefree I was
  3. I am pretty funny, actually!
  4. I conquered a big old fear and did stand up. At the Improv. In front of Drew Carey and a bunch of other comics and they laughed!
  5. I love that for a while, I really did live my dream of being a professional actor.
  6. I like that I have gotten into refinishing and painting furniture. I’m pretty proud of how I’ve taught myself how to do that!
  7. I’m a good decorator.
  8. I like that I grew up with an anxiety disorder and was a train wreck teenager, but came out the other side a wiser adult.
  9. I like that I beat my eating disorder before it beat me.
  10. I like  my lips and eyes.
  11. I like that I am decisive. Whether I chose right or wrong, I chose what I want really quickly.
  12. I like that when I set my mind to something more often than not I make it happen.
  13. I like that I can do a bunch of accents/dialects and can come up with a sketch comedy character quickly!
  14. I like that I have found an incredible group of friends through blogging.
  15. I like that I am me. When it boils down to it, I really wouldn’t want to be anyone else. Of course, I’d like to be me with my own house and oodles of money….but me nonetheless

There. 15. Whew. I need  a drink. Why is that so hard? And so…uncomfortable feeling? Ugh. You do it too, okay? List and link up. Cause well, we could all use a little pick me up, I’d love to read what you like about you. Cause I think you rock.

 

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18 thoughts on “What I like about me…

  1. LOVE that picture at the end. Love your list and the story that leads up to it. Love you for encouraging me to participate, to find my self-like tonight. Hugs. (You are NOT too much, you are just right, you are you.)

  2. I know what you mean about being uncomfortable with doing a list on things we like about ourselves, but by golly, you have a FABULOUS list there.

    Which only means one thing…..

    ….You ARE fabulous.

    Love the last picture!

  3. This is such an interesting post. Just a few weeks ago I finally clued into how destructive my critic (that degrading voice in my head) is. It’s pretty crazy! I really don’t know why us women think we need to be so darn mean to ourselves. If you heard someone saying that to their friend, partner or child, you would probably smack them. So why is it ok to say it to yourself?

    Anyways, good work on the list! It’s a great idea!

  4. I wish there was a show (are you listening TLC or somebody??) that showed a day in the life of one person and how much they beat themselves up. Then the second half of the show would be recounts of the people that person had encountered of what they actually thought (strangers included, like the grocery cashier who I was convinced thought I was a cow for buying fudge covered oreos and tampax). We could actually learn that people might just think we are awesome.

    See, the thing is… I truly adore you and am completely inspired by you. You are one of the people I never tell MB about because then he would know there are amazing women in the world and realize he’s picking the runt of the litter. You are absolutely gorgeous (no disclaimers needed like’ for someone who has had two kids’, but I will say this is incredibly disheartening to me because you look better than me on your worst day than I do on my best and I haven’t produced beautiful little humans like you). You are creative and genuine. You are a fighter– even though I might have disagreed with you on an issue, I’ve always been inspired by how you are not afraid to put your opinion out there. In addition, you are incredibly loyal and will fight for injustices to your friends (like the Target stealing debacle). In addition, you are so caring and compassionate and never post pics on twitter of cars you’d like to ram like I do. You have amazing taste and decorating style– I’m not even allowed to paint without supervision and NOONE will volunteer for that particular duty. & I’ve always been a fan of your hair and your sassy poses when displaying your fabulous hair. My hair was orange for 2 months. ORANGE.

    You are wicked funny. Loving. Amazing wife, mother, friend, writer and actress. I adore you. It hurts my heart to think that someone as awesome as you ever feels less than fabulous and awesome.

  5. You are incredibly funny. And a great writer!! You know, there are some bloggers whose posts you just kinda slog through? But I read every word of yours. Because its entertaining and well written. And I imagine (in my mind) that you are much like that in real life 🙂

    In the past, when you’ve written about The Boss, you have this tone and this honesty about it….I am just amazed at how much you are in love with your boy (and now, your boys). You are like, The Best Mama. Honest.

    So yeah, I think you’re fabulous. Now I am not sure if I could write 15 things about myself. Egad. lol.

  6. I love your list and love the idea of making my own! Sometimes, when I’m going through a lot, it’s easy to forget the good things in my life and what I’m good at.

  7. great list! and you are right, it is hard to actually sit down and make a list of what you like about yourself. I think I will make a list link up, even though I haven’t blogged in about 7 months!

  8. It is hard making a list like this, but you did great! There’s a lot of great things to like about you. And the picture at the end is awesome!

  9. You ARE funny.
    You’re a really good writer.
    You’re nice to random strangers you meet at blog conferences. 🙂
    I’ve only met you once (at Bloggy Boot Camp Baltimore) but I’m so glad I did. It made my 1st blog conference much more fun!

    You’re on to something with this list. In fact, maybe I’ll give it a try. I recently wrote a guest post for a friend’s blog called “Learning to Embrace My Awesomeness.” (Here’s the link if you’re interested: http://bit.ly/lKHKVT) It was more about my struggle w/ my professional image, but what I like about your list is it’s what YOU like about you, not what other people might like.

  10. You FLOORED me with the stand up. I bow down. I would never, ever have the guts to get up on stage by myself, in front of such an esteemed crowd.

    • Dude, it was so scary! But it was so much fun! I loved doing stand up, it was so cool. I should do it again…you know, while tending to a toddler and a newborn.

  11. It’s amazing to me that we can all feel so similarly about ourselves, or about how we THINK we’re being percieved by others. I too always feel like I talk to much, or need to reign in the personality somewhat. Always worried that people don’t REALLY like me, they’re just playing nice. OR, I can be completely opposite and think, I’m really cool and funny and the best friend, surely that’s how people see me. Those moments are much fewer and farther between. hahaha

    Anyway……as all the other comments have stated, I too think you’re fab! Adorable, funny, smart and I’m truly moved by the depth of your love and devotion to your children. They are so lucky to have you. I would FOR SURE want to be your friend in real life. We could so rock the furniture re do world. Speaking of, I just redid a table today. Pretty simple, but looks great.

    Keep on keepin on miss Minky Moo. You have A LOT to offer this here world. Not the least of which is, you make freaking, ridiculously CUTE children.

  12. I loved learning more about you, and I love what a survivor you are and how many cool things youve done. good insight into your character and who you are! Looking forward to getting to know you better. You did great with this post, just wanted to encourage you 🙂

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