Be Enough.

Guys, I’ve been struggling with finding who I am since…well since I had The Boss. So much changed after he was born and with the Postpartum Anxiety and everything I never got my mojo back. I never got back into wearing make up or you know, real clothes on a regular basis. After Huck was born it was like a veil lifted. Even though PPA reared it’s ugly head again I still feel more like ME than I have in years. Maybe it’s that I’ve settled into life here in DC, or accepted that I am no longer an actor primarily but a mother and have grown to enjoy and thrive in that role.

Maybe it’s just inexplicable, but I find myself now struggling with what my new style is, clothes, hair, and all that jazz that goes with it. Somethings I KNOW I like and some I am simply lost in a sea of uncertainty. But I do know this: I am ready to get the ball rolling on reclaiming ME.

Proof I got dressed this week:

I may not be a size 2 anymore, but here I am in real clothes mere hours after being attacked by that Cicada from Hades. And you know what? Being out in public, all dressed and happy was great! The Boss had a blast running around like a sugar infused maniac, Huck got loved on by everyone with a uterus, and I? didn’t feel self conscious once!

I played ‘tennis’ and drew with sidewalk chalk with The Boss and was really present with him, not checking my iphone for a text or twitter.

The Boss drew us a picture of ‘Piss’ aka Bizz Markie

This guy decided that he cracks himself up!

And then?? He slept. Through. The. Night.

I did a little bit of clothes shopping this week too, comfy but cute stuff. I will shake off the yoga pants as a uniform (i know, I’ve said it before but I mean it this time!! Promise)

Perhaps these are small accomplishments, but I’m going to go ahead and pat myself on the back for them. Ya gotta start somewhere, right? I’ve also joined the team over at JustBeEnough. I hope you’ll check it out, it’s something I truly believe in. We are having a linky on Mondays, you can link ANYTHING that made you feel good this week. And for every 20 links Bellflower Books will donate a book to someone struggling with cancer.

Here’s hoping we come out the flip side of Irene unscathed! Because really? That would be enough.

Oh! And PS if you ever wanted to know who #1 on my FIVE ALIVE is? I’m gushing about him over on The DC Moms! I’m all over the place! Who is your #1?

22 thoughts on “Be Enough.

    • you probably have no idea how much your positivity affects me. You are so very sweet and I can’t tell you how I appreciate all of your comments and support. Thank you.

    • You guys make it home and fare the storm okay? I’m glad I brought a smile to you, you so regularly do the same for me.

  1. Awesome! I’ve been making more of an effort to wear makeup or cute clothes. I got so tired of wearing maternity t-shirts after Donut was here. Looking better helps me feel better–but I only do it for me now. I’m loving the Just Be Enough blog. I have so much to say about it.

    • I’m so glad you’re enjoying Just Be Enough. When Elena brought it up I really wanted to be involved! I managed to put on make up and even real clothes today even though I’m not going out of the house, I’m just doing it for me right now, as you are, but I need to be accountable otherwise I’ll never do it!

  2. You look great. I remember when I finally got back into regular clothes and not maternity I felt so much better about me and then I could focus more on my son.

  3. I love this post, your pictures are adorable, and I enjoyed getting to follow you around through the week 🙂 You do have to start somewhere, and accept yourself where you are, believing that you ARE enough. Great to meet you!

    • Lovely to meet you as well! Thank you so much for the compliments, I am trying to get a move on and you are right, ya do gotta start somewhere! I’ve been poking around on your blog today!

  4. I swear the best thing I did for myself this year after having #2 was spend the most money I ever have on jeans that don’t look like “mom” jeans but also don’t show my crack when I’m bending over playing with kids. And just buying some clothes that can get food all over them but that made me still feel human. I put away the boxy old race shirts for cleaning or bad days. It makes a big difference. 🙂

    • That’s exactly it. You hit the nail on the head, If I can wear some comfy cute clothes that are easily washable but aren’t pj’s I feel a lot better. Good jeans or cute cargos for the win!

  5. Love your non-yoga pants clothes. So cute!!!! Also good to hear your ppa lifted some after your second was born. I developed ppd, ppa after my third. I don’t know if we will have more, but it is encouraging to hear things can be better after the next baby, if that makes sense…

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