Guys, I’ve been struggling with finding who I am since…well since I had The Boss. So much changed after he was born and with the Postpartum Anxiety and everything I never got my mojo back. I never got back into wearing make up or you know, real clothes on a regular basis. After Huck was born it was like a veil lifted. Even though PPA reared it’s ugly head again I still feel more like ME than I have in years. Maybe it’s that I’ve settled into life here in DC, or accepted that I am no longer an actor primarily but a mother and have grown to enjoy and thrive in that role.
Maybe it’s just inexplicable, but I find myself now struggling with what my new style is, clothes, hair, and all that jazz that goes with it. Somethings I KNOW I like and some I am simply lost in a sea of uncertainty. But I do know this: I am ready to get the ball rolling on reclaiming ME.
Proof I got dressed this week:
I may not be a size 2 anymore, but here I am in real clothes mere hours after being attacked by that Cicada from Hades. And you know what? Being out in public, all dressed and happy was great! The Boss had a blast running around like a sugar infused maniac, Huck got loved on by everyone with a uterus, and I? didn’t feel self conscious once!
I played ‘tennis’ and drew with sidewalk chalk with The Boss and was really present with him, not checking my iphone for a text or twitter.
The Boss drew us a picture of ‘Piss’ aka Bizz Markie
This guy decided that he cracks himself up!
And then?? He slept. Through. The. Night.
I did a little bit of clothes shopping this week too, comfy but cute stuff. I will shake off the yoga pants as a uniform (i know, I’ve said it before but I mean it this time!! Promise)
Perhaps these are small accomplishments, but I’m going to go ahead and pat myself on the back for them. Ya gotta start somewhere, right? I’ve also joined the team over at JustBeEnough. I hope you’ll check it out, it’s something I truly believe in. We are having a linky on Mondays, you can link ANYTHING that made you feel good this week. And for every 20 links Bellflower Books will donate a book to someone struggling with cancer.
Here’s hoping we come out the flip side of Irene unscathed! Because really? That would be enough.
Oh! And PS if you ever wanted to know who #1 on my FIVE ALIVE is? I’m gushing about him over on The DC Moms! I’m all over the place! Who is your #1?